Hospitals Are Failing Black Women

If you have been reading my blog you know I am a strong advocate for natural birth. A coworker just shared an article in which Serena Williams shared her birth story. Let's just say after reading it a range of emotions hit me at once. EMPATHY. . . SADNESS. . . ANGER. . . PAIN. Here is a woman who is in superior shape, her body is flawlessly perfect, unable to experience a birth without complications. This has transcended socio-economics and reached the common denominator, RACE. Black women are dying at a rate THREE times higher than white women during childbirth. This seems like a conspiracy, right?! How is this happening? Why has this not been shouted from the rooftops, similar to the MMR vaccine effecting Black boys so severely? What does the CDC and WHO have to say about this? Not much because the crime is against Black women.


I have been in a heightened state of awareness in regards to how the "system" has been set up to reduce the population of certain demographics {read between the lines}. I am currently reading, BLACK MATTERS: The Scientific Intervention In Our Affairs by ZaZa Ali, and my mind is just blown away by her research. If you want FACTS with peer-reviewed sources please get all three volumes of her book. She speaks about Eugenics, abortion, and birthing a new nation. She shares how sinister and vile the system truly is in regards to melanated people. Its like if you can not sterilize us with faulty birth control, or persuade us with abortions, you catch us on the back end with killing us via C-sections and unnecessary birth interventions. 

I am tired of hearing about women dying during or after the labor of their first child due to C-Section complications. It's crazy!  Check out these articles on the topic:


Serena Williams Almost Died After Giving Birth. Her Story Is Shared By Black Women Across America

I pray we have a birth advocate in Serena Williams after her bout with giving birth in this country. 

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A YouTube Channel

The girls are huge fans of YouTube Kids and each time they watch I get asked about starting their own channel by SJ. I told her once we move out of our apartment into a nicely, well light house I would create a "studio" area for them. In the meantime I will work on perfecting my video capturing and editing skills.

So far we have created a few videos, check them out.

Our first attempt was created using my iPhone 6s Plus.



Faux Stay-At-Home Mommy

I have made a committment to blog again, consistently. I once used this site as a digital scrapbook/journal. Then priorities changed, life began to get FULL and I stopped. I miss it and Instagram, Snapchat, and Facebook have not filled the void of being about to express myself fully. So self expression here I come.

Papito is five months and I feel like the almost six months I've been on "maternity leave" has gone so quickly. My status as a faux stay-at-home mom will officially be over in four weeks. Now I give props to mothers, and fathers, who spend years raising their children and not working away from home, but bruh' it won't be me. I am sooo ready to return to the classroom, adult conversation, and a bi-monthly pay check.


During the five and a half months I've been home I was able to give Petite Seats a lot of attention. Primarily the time was spent getting to know Papito and spending QT with the girls. Also, fulfilling the traditional gender role tasks D and I typically share. You know washing clothes, cooking exclusively, picking up the girls from school, etc. Doing these tasks further reinforced my thoughts on needing additional assistance in my household and I could never do this full time. 

Vaccinated vs NonVaccinated

Finally a study with data comparing the nonvaxxed to the vaxxed.

The study was designed as a cross-sectional survey of homeschooling mothers on their vaccinated and unvaccinated biological children ages 6 to 12.

Compelling snippets from the research: 

"U.S. is experiencing what has been described as a “silent pandemic” of mostly subclinical developmental neurotoxicity"


"The need for such studies is suggested by the fact that the Vaccine Injury Compensation Program has paid $3.2 billion in compensation for vaccine injury since its creation in 1986."


 Print a copy and read it for yourself! 

Summer, Summer, Summertime {2017}

We have finally closed another chapter of our lives this summer. In August we purchased our second home.

After living all of our lives in cities, D and I made the decision to move to the county like setting of Sussex County, New Jersey. My commute is brutal, 3-3.5 hours on average, but we LOVE our new home. After 39 months of saving we reached one of our long term goals of owning a house with a pool and space to grow.

Puréed Baby Foods

Papito is venturing into the world of foods. With each of my children I have become more restrictive with the foods they eat. For instance, we were giving SJ organic whole cow milk from the age of 12 months. For CC, we gave her organic milk for six months then stopped cold turkey. I don't plan to let cow's milk past Papito's lips AT ALL. I am using Dr. Sebi's Nutritional Guide as the basis for all of the pureed food I plan to prepare for Papito. 


Stage One Recipes {6-8 months}

Roasted Organic Sweet Potato + Organic Chickpea + Breastmilk

Roasted Organic Sweet Potato + Quinoa + Breastmilk


4 Day Wait Rule

 " When you introduce a new food over the course of several days, you are better able to determine exactly how your baby is reacting to that food.  It is important to follow the “four day wait” rule when introducing your baby to new solid foods, especially in the beginning stage. This is most important if you and/or your family members have a history of food allergies."   Read more at

"When you introduce a new food over the course of several days, you are better able to determine exactly how your baby is reacting to that food.  It is important to follow the “four day wait” rule when introducing your baby to new solid foods, especially in the beginning stage. This is most important if you and/or your family members have a history of food allergies."

 Quinoa + Peach 

Quinoa + Peach 


” Mucus is the cause of every disease. Eliminate the mucus you eliminate the disease. ”  – Dr. Sebi


Dr Sebi RIP


One day while searching for videos on YouTube about the "perfect human diet" I arrive upon a two hour video titled "Dr. Sebi: Eat To Live". It was of poor video quality, but I said hey I'm in rush hour traffic let's see what this is about. It changed my life. There are very few prolific occurrences I can point to that have made me alter the way in which I live and think. Dr. Sebi is one such man that I've been obsessed with his teachings. And have earnestly tried to live according to his food list.


According to his company's website, "Pathologist, herbalist, and naturalist, Dr. Sebi has spent decades studying the plants and herbs of North, South and Central America, Africa and the Caribbean. His unique approach to healing the human body is firmly rooted in that experience.

Born Alfredo Bowman in Honduras in 1933, Dr. Sebi learned at the foot of his grandmother, "Mama Hay," and later, in treating himself, with a traditional herbalist in Mexico. On finding the healing he’d sought, Dr Sebi created a line of natural vegetable cell food compounds used for inter-cellular cleansing and cellular revitalization. Dr. Sebi is pleased to share his deep understand of traditional herbal and vegetable compounds through the USHA Research Institute, Dr. Sebi LLC, and the Usha Healing Village in La Ceiba, Honduras."


I tell D all the time if any of us becomes sick with cancer, heart disease, or any other host of diseases often treated with drugs, we are going to Honduras to the Usha Village or to Mexico to the Gerson Institute. No chemo, no pharmaceuticals. 

The reports of Dr. Sebi's death are saying he died in police custody. My heart is heavy reading this news. Another holistic doctor murdered for the truth they teach. My prayers go out to his family. I hope they have the courage and fortitude to continue his legacy.



Dr. Sebi's Nutritional Guide


First Day of Kindergarten

In a previous post I mentioned we were sending the girls to a neighborhood school. We decided to give it a try and we were told it is the best public PK-K program in our city. Fast forward to the first day of school. We arrive to learn SJ will not have a teacher until October 3! Big red flag for us. In spite of this, the teacher's assistant made us feel confident in his abilities, so we settled on keeping SJ in the class until the teacher returned from her leave.

 CC got her first, and last, taste of GMO ladened cereal and graham crackers

CC got her first, and last, taste of GMO ladened cereal and graham crackers

Halloween 2016

For the second year in a row we visited the Turtle Back Zoo for Trick-or-Treating the girls had a blast and thankfully the weather was mind.

 Walking along the many paths in the zoo in search of candy

Walking along the many paths in the zoo in search of candy


Halloween 2016

Last summer while on one of my weekly trips to my favorite thrift store I purchased children sized Asian print pajamas for $6 a set. The golden colored set, had a Chinese Mandarin collar and gorgeous frog closures.

 Our Big Girl

Our Big Girl

 Our Baby Girl

Our Baby Girl

To celebrate Halloween the parents in our building decided to setup a little get together in the community room. It was a very informal opportunity for everyone to connect, let the kids run around, and paint pumpkins.

I went to the Dollar Store and purchased a few items to decorate the kids table. 

I didn't want the girls to wear such a nice outfit to school, so I went to Walmart and purchased a $10 outfit for their school costume parade.

Visiting Abuelo

D's father lives in Connecticut and every couple of months we take the drive up to visit. Unfortunately this last trip I had to work and wasn't able to go with the fam. Needless to say, the kids had a blast and they were able to experience learning how to dance to bachata and merengue.


D and his father's relationship, now this is me looking in, is rather ambivalent. D is indifferent to his father's involvement in his life. While I am like D have you called your father this month, he is like no and makes no fuss about it. Yet, when he does call I notice a peace come over D that wasn't there before. This occurs after we go to visit as well. Because my father is such an important part of my life, it's hard for me to understand D and his father's relationship. So, I just fall back and let him go with the flow. I'm still trying to convince him to get his father to visit us in New Jersey, maybe for Thanksgiving. Let me tell you this man can cook his ass off. 



Ten Things That Make Me Really Happy {Long}

It’s the seventh day of 2018. The weather outside is a -2 degrees and I am warmly ensconced under a thick comforter and my new electric blanket {Xmas gift from D}. My body has been up since 4am, as is the norm, and I’ve been reflecting. I thought to myself, “Nida as this world goes to shit what do you have to. be happy about?” Welp... indeed if I gave into the worries I have about humanity I would need a truckload of antidepressants, but I try to not dwell in the negative. Each day I give myself a mental slap to stay in the light and push through. I have so many things in life to be happy about.  Here is my list of the top ten:


MY PARENTS gave me the skills to be a critical thinker, a hustler, empathetic, and a leader. This skill set has allowed to me accomplish much in my 36 short years. I am happy my parents had their shit together and ALWAYS put my sisters and I first.



Having two YOUNGER SISTERS prepared me so much for raising my two little girls. I am happy I learned how to be a fierce protector of them at a young age. I am happy I had their hair to experiment on to learn hairstyling. I am happy I know beyond a shadow of a doubt there will always be two people in this world that will ride with me no matter the circumstance.



I am happy the universe aligned my path with a HUSBAND who just gets me and allows me to be great. Our ninth wedding anniversary is in a few days so he’ll get a whole post celebrating his awesomeness.



I am happy my three CHILDREN are such dynamic, intelligent, fantastic little humans. Each day I wake excited for them to share their interpretations of this world with me. I’ve started journaling to each of them with life lessons and affirmations I plan to gift them on their eighteenth birthday. Giving them a jump start into adulthood is my plan.




I am a HEALTHY and fit. This makes me happy because so many in my life depend on pharmaceuticals to get through the day. I am team #NoMeat #SpringWater #NoVaxx 



I am happy I chose a career I’m able to advance in without major challenges and allows me the flexibility to be an entrepreneur concurrently. I’m not ready to give up that NYC pension honey😏. 



I am happy my BILLS are paid on time and I can still support my obsession with outfitting my littles with their hearts’ desires. In addition, to this each day I look at my house and feel giddy with the knowledge of how D and I busted our asses and sacrificed to meet on of our long term goals.




I am happy I’ve started a COMPANY I can see myself leaving to my children to run. Building a tangible legacy is important to me. Stocks, good credit, life insurance, real estate, a superior immune system, straight teeth, a business, and common sense are all things I plan to pass on to give them a fresh start into adulthood. 



 I am happy for Amazon KINDLE and all the ratchet and not so ratchet reads I’ve enjoyed on my 3-4 hour daily commute. Love Belvin...Blue Saffire...Kenya Wright...Christina C. Jones..Iris Bolling...Vivian Rose Lee...D Camille...Latrivia Welch...Sienna Mynx...S.K. Hardy...Pepper Pace all give me life and are my drug of choice. Reading their work is the perfect mood stabilizer for my busy life. 

Holiday 2016 Pictures

Following our annual tradition, we got dresses up and had Digna of Digna Toledo Photography capture our family for the holiday season. We shot at the Dixie Dale Christmas Tree farm in Chatham, New Jersey.

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Per usual SJ decided she didn't want to smile in any pictures. CC was a trouper and was cheesing away. Lil Papito was like a deer in headlines, he didn't know what was going on.



Holiday Portraits: The Deets

This year we went with a black and white theme for holiday portraits. I spent countless hours on EBay searching for inexpensive outfits and I hit pay dirt. Check out the deets below. 



The original dress I wanted for the girls was on Aliexpress, but because I had a two week window for ordering it was a no go. These black pickup dresses were cheap and photographed nicely.

 Pickup dresses in black with white sash $21.99 each

Pickup dresses in black with white sash $21.99 each

 The girls crystal tiaras were $9.99 each. I have to add this to the red ones we used last year. 

The girls crystal tiaras were $9.99 each. I have to add this to the red ones we used last year. 

I tried a new style for the girls hair, much to D's chagrin. I have a board on Pinterest here called "BabyGirls Hair"  ( where I pin cute, easy to do cornrow and natural hair styles for my littles. This style I did received a pack of synthetic braiding hair and hairpins. The hair was twisted, using two strands of hair. The style took less then ten minutes to do.

 The girls in their CrewCuts winter coats

The girls in their CrewCuts winter coats

For me, I kept it simple with two goddess braids. Now my outfit was a steal at $31.49 from EBay vendor "alisapanus".


The skirt was a rayon-polyester blend that ironed well and fit like a glove. The top wasn't as nice a quality. There were several loose threads, but for the thirty minutes I wore the outfit it was perfect. There was a lot of sucking in my gut, but I was comfortable.  

 Neli and Papi  

Neli and Papi  

 My guys

My guys


Thanksgiving 2016

This year after we decided to do a non-traditional Thanksgiving. Instead of cooking or dinner at family's we took the Path train into the City. We had dinner and dessert in Chinatown.  The girls requested lo mein and tea. 

 Under the new Freedom Tower at the Path train station

Under the new Freedom Tower at the Path train station

After dinner and dessert we did a little shopping and headed back to New Jersey.


I haven't been feeling very festive in wake of the chaos and strife I read about happening around the world. Take your pick ... Hate crimes are rising... Donald Trump is our President elect... Natives in Dakota are being terrorized...Syria... The days are shorter... Less sunlight. Oh the list seems endless. Hopefully for our babies sake I will be out of this funk by Christmas.


The girls had a blast and got to experience an ethnic neighborhood other then their own.  I'd say  mission accomplished!

Last Soiree Before Fall

My uncle celebrated his 55th birthday with a BBQ celebration. We made the journey down to Somerset County and enjoyed an afternoon in fellowship. My little ones love Uncle Mass and Aunt Sandra's house because of their vast property and their two dogs, Carmelo and LaLa. 

 Uncle Mass + Little Papito

Uncle Mass + Little Papito

 Papi + Papito

Papi + Papito

Watching CC interact with a younger girl was intriguing. She called the little girl in the picture "the baby". I was enthralled seeing her try to nurture her and tell her not to do things, just like SJ does to her. Kids mimic the behaviors they see, I'm sure when Papito is older and able to move about she will be stuck to him like white on rice.

 Lita + Papito

Lita + Papito

We welcomed Lita into our family on August 20. She is D's younger cousin from P.R. She has been a tremendous help with the kids and watching Papito since I begun work. I am hoping for a smooth transition from faux stay-at-home mommy to teacher. I pray this school year brings growth and positive changes.

From Private to Public

The girls will be making a huge transition from the inimate setting of their former private nursery school to "big" public school. I have so much angst concerning this move. One, it's public school. Well let me further clarify this statement, it's public school in a predominantly black community with a high level of poverty. As an educator who understands the ins and outs of how school districts with these characteristics are often slighted, I'm worried. I'm praying for superb administrators, a decided teaching staff, and a safe environment. Unlike in the suburbs where I would have to worry about their psychological safety more, I'm vexed about the quality of instruction and the behavior of the students.


Two, the class size has me worried, particularly for CC. The student-teacher ratio they have been used to was 10:2, now it will be two-and-a-half times greater (25:2). I'm crossing my fingers this school meets our expectations. I already have the days in September and October when I will be volunteering in their classrooms. I don't want to have any "I'm goin' up the school" moments, so they will know Mrs. Cruz. D and I decided not to inform them of our professions, and see how everything falls into place.


Three, I know the socialization aspect will be a culture shock for the girls because they are coming from a largely Latino environment. With their Crunchy mama, organic lunches in $60 stainless steel bento boxes, and L.L. Bean monogrammed bookbags I hope they fare well. In jest, I tell D he has to learn to do a better job of styling their hair in the morning because little sistahs will talk about their curly, Afros. I don't want them to have a complex. 


We are on a fourteen month time table for our dream home. I just hope EO public schools treat us well until we move on over to the country.

 PreK3 and PreK5 Portraits

PreK3 and PreK5 Portraits

 With their school's uniform

With their school's uniform

 Our little "Graduate" 

Our little "Graduate" 

Learning To Swim

D and I learned to swim as adolescents. We agreed that we wanted the girls to learn much earlier. With the proverbial swift kick from my mother we enrolled them for group and private lessons at our local Y. 


Initially, CC was afraid because of her pool scare on Mother's Day. During the second session she did much better and was willing to push through her fear.  There is no real way to "drown-proof" your kids, but I want them to learn to swim and be aware of water safety.


According to the CDC: 

Between 1999-2010, the fatal unintentional drowning rate for African Americans was significantly higher than that of whites across all ages. The disparity is widest among children 5-18 years old. The disparity is most pronounced in swimming pools; African American children 5-19 drown in swimming pools at rates 5.5 times higher than those of whites. This disparity is greatest among those 11-12 years where African Americans drown in swimming pools at rates 10 times those of whites.

Factors such as access to swimming pools, the desire or lack of desire to learn how to swim, and choosing water-related recreational activities may contribute to the racial differences in drowning rates. Available rates are based on population, not on participation. If rates could be determined by actual participation in water-related activities, the disparity in minorities’ drowning rates compared to whites would be much greater. SOURCE

So why don't more Black people learn how to swim?!  According to Southgate the problem has its roots in slavery, where most problems for Black folks began, "it has been documented that before slavery, many West Africans could and did swim. But a slave who could swim was a slave with another means of escape, so slave owners went to great lengths to make it impossible to keep this skill alive." The article goes on to say, "Later, segregation took its ugly toll at public beaches and pools. According to the historian Jeff Wiltse in an NPR interview, “whites set up, essentially, sentinel guards at the entrance to the pool, and when black swimmers tried to come in and access them, they were beaten up, sometimes with clubs.” One white motel manager was caught on camera pouring acid into a pool in which blacks were staging a 'swim-in.' Institutionalized racism was shored up by specious scholarship, like a 1969 report titled 'The Negro and Learning to Swim: The Buoyancy Problem Related to Reported Biological Difference.'” SOURCE


 First Swimming Lesson

First Swimming Lesson

All in all our little ones will be excellent swimmers and will be well aware of how to ride out a rip current while at the beach. By next year this time they will have had hundreds of hours of swim time at the EO YMCA.